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So lately I’ve been wondering what do I really want in life, I know I want to follow my passion but even to pursue your passion, there has to be a “why”, a reason to why you want to do what you want to do. I’ve been a dreamer since I was a kid, imagining what I will be doing in the future and never thinking of “what if I don’t make it”. However lately since I’ve been home for the summer break, I’ve been very unproductive and not been able to even find a “normal job”, my own expectation of me has accumulated to view myself as a failure, which is why I’ve been asking myself what does really motivate me?

This video was not planned in any way, my girlfriend and I went to Folkestone, Kent just before the sunset and I thought to express what has been on my mind lately.

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I’ll be going into third year of my uni, and I still feel lost as ever.

Some people seem to be motivated by money, some by fame and others by a sense of security.

But me… I don’t know what motives me.

I mean, I do enjoy learning, not just by books.

It could be anything, from films to real life experiences.

I love those little moments in life.

I love listening to other people.

I love observing life.

I just love to feel.

I don’t know exactly what I want in life.

But I know for sure, what I don’t… and that is to stay still.

I guess, I’m motivated by… growth.

 

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Venice Trip

I hate feeling guilty and whenever I take some time off to relax, do nothing or even take holiday, that feeling of guilt starts to erupt. The whole time in my mind I think about how I could’ve used that time to do something useful. Luckily, my girlfriend is the opposite, she believes in living in the present, which is how she convinced me to go on this trip to Venice.

Venice was great, a perfect place to get lost and explore.

Being an aspiring filmmaker, I also took few cameras to test, a BMPCC and a 35mm film camera.

With the video I tried to avoid slowing down the clips and use fancy transitions, realized my shots aren’t as strong as I would like it to be, as most of the shots were unusable and I feel the final video lacks depth and story.

I’ve always admired the tone and feeling produced from 35mm film cameras but never got the chance to try it. So taking advantage of university’s equipment, I borrowed Pentax K1000 and bought some exposures from Amazon, here is the result. (Used http://www.photo-express.co.uk to develop and print the photos)

Thinking back, I’m glad I decided to go to Venice. Even though working hard and being productive is something that gives me satisfaction, my life will not feel complete as these little moments spending time with my loved ones are something that will stay with me forever.

Reflective Video – 201MC Professional Experience

One of the final tasks for 201MC “Professional Experience” module, involved making a video no longer than 2mins reflecting upon my own experience in the “real world”.

The idea behind it was to reflect, identify challenges that relate to our chosen profession, learn to collate our research and supporting material into a coherent whole, articulate our own desires and ambitions in a media world, realize how much can be told in a 2-minute long video and to be aware how different styles of film-making affect the viewer’s understanding.

My idea was to introduce four different scenes, one being awakened by sound of someone’s footsteps and getting up to work on this video, then cutting to three other different short scenes relating to confidence, purpose and patience, each with different actors and then cutting back to the first one working on the video but making sure all the scenes link to each other. However, due to leaving it to the last week, and equipment not being available (really wanted to test Blackmagic Ursa Mini 4.6k), also the location being too far for my actors (housemates who had exams), I had to think of a plan B.

Plan B, was a simple idea, walking upstairs in very low light not being aware of where it might take but learning something new with each step, each floor, each struggle. If I had to do it again then I would’ve portrayed doors as opportunities.

Looking back at it, the first idea was too big, and I’ve learnt that big doesn’t always mean the best, a simple small idea can be more appropriate depending on the project.

I tried my best to show on the video what I’ve learnt through my various placements this year, and if it still isn’t clear then I’ve done a bad job.

 

The Other Side – Short Film

After running Coventry half marathon, I finally had enough confidence to shoot this short film.

One of the most common advice you will find from hearing successful filmmakers is that “Just make a film, get a camera and just shoot”, while it does sound easy, making a film is incredibly complicated and making a good film is even more complicated.

After seeing lot of 3rd years in my uni, who are stressing over their final major projects, I wanted to make a film as well but with different intention; not to get a good grade but to grow as a filmmaker.

I spent a month or two, writing the script and re-writing it. One thing I’ve realized is that as a student you have the opportunity to get help from tutors, even for personal projects. Huge shout out to Clifton Stewart, an experienced screenwriter/ tutor, who gave me lot of feedback on the script.

I had never worked with trained actors so this project was almost like a vehicle to take me outside my comfort zone forcing me to hold auditions, rehearsals, contact agents and so on. It was new but it definitely did not feel new, maybe it was because I was looking forward to it for a long time.

As I felt slightly intimidated working with actors who have worked on feature films, I tried to shoot everything very quickly without making them wait for too long, with minimum equipment and crews. However after getting feedback from one of the actor I’ve learned that I did the complete opposite of what a director should do. I should have concentrated 100% on telling the story in the best way possible instead of worrying about the actors.

As I wrap up this project with multiple re-edits (5 to be exact), I’ve learned that to learn to make a good film, you just have to make a film, “just get a camera and shoot”. Even though it did not turn out the way I had hoped, leaving me with thoughts such as if I had done this  or that, made this decision instead of that, why didn’t I do this and so on, it was an enjoyable process and I’ve definitely learned a thing or two; helping me to take one step closer to my dream.

Message From People in Coventry


Inspired by the concept of “A Message in a Bottle” and Humans of New York, I decided do a project asking people of Coventry to leave a message in front of a camera.

The objective was to build a communication bridge between people who want to say something to the other person or even themselves but due to physical or mental restrictions they can’t do so.

How the idea came up
As a human being we love to communicate, more importantly express how we feel about certain things or about someone. However sometimes we feel restricted because of certain things for example we don’t have enough courage to say it in person, the timing is not right, the other person has already passed away, you feel like you need to let it out but not to people that you know, or you don’t know how to get in touch with the other person. The aim of this project was to overcome these restrictions.

After the video was shot and edited together, it was exhibited at the Glass Box Gallery on 13th March 2017 with other Media Production students who did a project on Humans Of Coventry. Overall the exhibition was successful and received positive feedback.

The project was also an experiment if people had something that they wanted to get off their chest because experts at Harvard School of Public Health and the University of Rochester showed that people who bottle up their emotions are in higher risk of premature death, 35% to be exact.

To overcome this issue, I’m planning to carry on the project but instead of “Message From People In Coventry”, it will be “Message From People On Earth”, and people will be asked to send message anonymously via www.peoplesmessages.tumblr.com. To implement the concept of “A Message in a Bottle”, the messages will be released on an Instagram account @peoplesmessages.

Letter to 30-year-old Me

I’ve always wanted to go to Paris, not only because of admiration I have for Jean-Luc Godard and the french new wave but I had fallen in love with their language and their culture since we had to learn french in year 7. So, on my 21st birthday my girlfriend and I decided to go there for 4 days. I couldn’t have made a better decision, Paris felt like a home to me and to be spending those moments with my other half, it was a paradise.

On the way back, I realized I had an extra postcard and since I’m doing a project where you have to send a message to someone, I decided to send a message to 30 year old me.

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I’m looking forward to reading it on my 30th birthday.

Curated Exhibition – 201MC

One of our module 201MC “Professional Experience” required us to organize an exhibition, showcasing our work made in the past.

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Theme
For this project most people from my course worked in groups, some were about photography, some fan-fiction, dreams, instagram and so on. However I did not have a specific film that I wanted to show, may be that is the reason why I didn’t have a specific group that I wanted to work with as every group had a specific theme. This resulted in, my own work being the theme, in other words have the whole exhibition showcasing only my work which included short docs, travel videos and short-short films.

The Venue
There’s always an objective when organizing exhibitions, sometimes it can be to inspire the younger generations, sometimes to raise awareness, sometimes to express an opinion or thought, sometimes to gain more exposure and so on. I felt like I didn’t have enough work or good quality work to organize a proper exhibition open to the public. In the end I used this project hoping to network with people from other years in my course or people from other courses. I used this as an opportunity to network with like-minded students.

Promoting
My main goal was to gain more filmmaking opportunities from this so to attract people involved in film projects I created a simple poster with my logo/symbol on it and have only neccesary information on it for example who, what, when and where, using few words as possible. I posted many of these posters around the Ellen Terry building, as that is where the film students have their classes. I also designed an A6 size flyer containing a brief description about the films that was to be shown and an email for people to contact just incase they were looking for an crew/assistant for their film projects. To make it a bit more professional I orded 130gsm silk paper A6 size flyers online using Visaprint’s services.

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The Exhibition
Before the actual exhibition, I had to carry out multiple tests with the equipment such as projector, speakers, the venue. I also asked the reception in Ellen Terry for permission and they had no problem with it. On the day of the exhibition, I rearranged the seats of the venue to make them facing the screen/projected area, and utilized as much space as possible. A lot of my friends turned up aswell, after putting the poster on social media. People from my course popped in and most importantly people that I don’t know also popped in from time to time. It was a good experience as I got to hear feedback from some of the audience and share contact information with some.

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Conclusion
At first I thought it was a good idea to do the exhibition on my own at Ellen Terry Building (Faculty of Arts & Humanities) however after going to watch some of my colleagues’ exhibition I realized how I was limiting myself, my ideas. I loved how other groups incorporated not only films but drama and artworks into the exhibition, creating an experience for the audiences. If I had to do it again, I would definitely do it outside university, even if I was targeting the 3rd year students; I would use social media to promote the exhibtion and be more confident about my work, making it available for the public rather than just targetting students from Ellen Terry Building.

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I See Myself As An Artist (261MC)

 

Sypnosis

When people think of boxing, they think of it as a combat sport where one has to win by punching the other. They definitely don’t see it in the same category as an art. However Bishal, a 20 years old boxer begs to differ, he sees it as an art; he sees himself as an artist.

“Painting on a canvas with two different brushes. The one who leaves the most paint wins, but at the end the paint itself is an art.” – Bishal Rai.

Throughout the 3-minute film you get acquainted with the character in all his environments: his home, his paths, his training life, but most importantly his perception.