growth.

So lately I’ve been wondering what do I really want in life, I know I want to follow my passion but even to pursue your passion, there has to be a “why”, a reason to why you want to do what you want to do. I’ve been a dreamer since I was a kid, imagining what I will be doing in the future and never thinking of “what if I don’t make it”. However lately since I’ve been home for the summer break, I’ve been very unproductive and not been able to even find a “normal job”, my own expectation of me has accumulated to view myself as a failure, which is why I’ve been asking myself what does really motivate me?

This video was not planned in any way, my girlfriend and I went to Folkestone, Kent just before the sunset and I thought to express what has been on my mind lately.

Voiceover

I’ll be going into third year of my uni, and I still feel lost as ever.

Some people seem to be motivated by money, some by fame and others by a sense of security.

But me… I don’t know what motives me.

I mean, I do enjoy learning, not just by books.

It could be anything, from films to real life experiences.

I love those little moments in life.

I love listening to other people.

I love observing life.

I just love to feel.

I don’t know exactly what I want in life.

But I know for sure, what I don’t… and that is to stay still.

I guess, I’m motivated by… growth.

 

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The Other Side – Short Film

After running Coventry half marathon, I finally had enough confidence to shoot this short film.

One of the most common advice you will find from hearing successful filmmakers is that “Just make a film, get a camera and just shoot”, while it does sound easy, making a film is incredibly complicated and making a good film is even more complicated.

After seeing lot of 3rd years in my uni, who are stressing over their final major projects, I wanted to make a film as well but with different intention; not to get a good grade but to grow as a filmmaker.

I spent a month or two, writing the script and re-writing it. One thing I’ve realized is that as a student you have the opportunity to get help from tutors, even for personal projects. Huge shout out to Clifton Stewart, an experienced screenwriter/ tutor, who gave me lot of feedback on the script.

I had never worked with trained actors so this project was almost like a vehicle to take me outside my comfort zone forcing me to hold auditions, rehearsals, contact agents and so on. It was new but it definitely did not feel new, maybe it was because I was looking forward to it for a long time.

As I felt slightly intimidated working with actors who have worked on feature films, I tried to shoot everything very quickly without making them wait for too long, with minimum equipment and crews. However after getting feedback from one of the actor I’ve learned that I did the complete opposite of what a director should do. I should have concentrated 100% on telling the story in the best way possible instead of worrying about the actors.

As I wrap up this project with multiple re-edits (5 to be exact), I’ve learned that to learn to make a good film, you just have to make a film, “just get a camera and shoot”. Even though it did not turn out the way I had hoped, leaving me with thoughts such as if I had done this  or that, made this decision instead of that, why didn’t I do this and so on, it was an enjoyable process and I’ve definitely learned a thing or two; helping me to take one step closer to my dream.

I See Myself As An Artist (261MC)

 

Sypnosis

When people think of boxing, they think of it as a combat sport where one has to win by punching the other. They definitely don’t see it in the same category as an art. However Bishal, a 20 years old boxer begs to differ, he sees it as an art; he sees himself as an artist.

“Painting on a canvas with two different brushes. The one who leaves the most paint wins, but at the end the paint itself is an art.” – Bishal Rai.

Throughout the 3-minute film you get acquainted with the character in all his environments: his home, his paths, his training life, but most importantly his perception.