growth.

So lately I’ve been wondering what do I really want in life, I know I want to follow my passion but even to pursue your passion, there has to be a “why”, a reason to why you want to do what you want to do. I’ve been a dreamer since I was a kid, imagining what I will be doing in the future and never thinking of “what if I don’t make it”. However lately since I’ve been home for the summer break, I’ve been very unproductive and not been able to even find a “normal job”, my own expectation of me has accumulated to view myself as a failure, which is why I’ve been asking myself what does really motivate me?

This video was not planned in any way, my girlfriend and I went to Folkestone, Kent just before the sunset and I thought to express what has been on my mind lately.

Voiceover

I’ll be going into third year of my uni, and I still feel lost as ever.

Some people seem to be motivated by money, some by fame and others by a sense of security.

But me… I don’t know what motives me.

I mean, I do enjoy learning, not just by books.

It could be anything, from films to real life experiences.

I love those little moments in life.

I love listening to other people.

I love observing life.

I just love to feel.

I don’t know exactly what I want in life.

But I know for sure, what I don’t… and that is to stay still.

I guess, I’m motivated by… growth.

 

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Venice Trip

I hate feeling guilty and whenever I take some time off to relax, do nothing or even take holiday, that feeling of guilt starts to erupt. The whole time in my mind I think about how I could’ve used that time to do something useful. Luckily, my girlfriend is the opposite, she believes in living in the present, which is how she convinced me to go on this trip to Venice.

Venice was great, a perfect place to get lost and explore.

Being an aspiring filmmaker, I also took few cameras to test, a BMPCC and a 35mm film camera.

With the video I tried to avoid slowing down the clips and use fancy transitions, realized my shots aren’t as strong as I would like it to be, as most of the shots were unusable and I feel the final video lacks depth and story.

I’ve always admired the tone and feeling produced from 35mm film cameras but never got the chance to try it. So taking advantage of university’s equipment, I borrowed Pentax K1000 and bought some exposures from Amazon, here is the result. (Used http://www.photo-express.co.uk to develop and print the photos)

Thinking back, I’m glad I decided to go to Venice. Even though working hard and being productive is something that gives me satisfaction, my life will not feel complete as these little moments spending time with my loved ones are something that will stay with me forever.

Reflective Video – 201MC Professional Experience

One of the final tasks for 201MC “Professional Experience” module, involved making a video no longer than 2mins reflecting upon my own experience in the “real world”.

The idea behind it was to reflect, identify challenges that relate to our chosen profession, learn to collate our research and supporting material into a coherent whole, articulate our own desires and ambitions in a media world, realize how much can be told in a 2-minute long video and to be aware how different styles of film-making affect the viewer’s understanding.

My idea was to introduce four different scenes, one being awakened by sound of someone’s footsteps and getting up to work on this video, then cutting to three other different short scenes relating to confidence, purpose and patience, each with different actors and then cutting back to the first one working on the video but making sure all the scenes link to each other. However, due to leaving it to the last week, and equipment not being available (really wanted to test Blackmagic Ursa Mini 4.6k), also the location being too far for my actors (housemates who had exams), I had to think of a plan B.

Plan B, was a simple idea, walking upstairs in very low light not being aware of where it might take but learning something new with each step, each floor, each struggle. If I had to do it again then I would’ve portrayed doors as opportunities.

Looking back at it, the first idea was too big, and I’ve learnt that big doesn’t always mean the best, a simple small idea can be more appropriate depending on the project.

I tried my best to show on the video what I’ve learnt through my various placements this year, and if it still isn’t clear then I’ve done a bad job.

 

Message From People in Coventry


Inspired by the concept of “A Message in a Bottle” and Humans of New York, I decided do a project asking people of Coventry to leave a message in front of a camera.

The objective was to build a communication bridge between people who want to say something to the other person or even themselves but due to physical or mental restrictions they can’t do so.

How the idea came up
As a human being we love to communicate, more importantly express how we feel about certain things or about someone. However sometimes we feel restricted because of certain things for example we don’t have enough courage to say it in person, the timing is not right, the other person has already passed away, you feel like you need to let it out but not to people that you know, or you don’t know how to get in touch with the other person. The aim of this project was to overcome these restrictions.

After the video was shot and edited together, it was exhibited at the Glass Box Gallery on 13th March 2017 with other Media Production students who did a project on Humans Of Coventry. Overall the exhibition was successful and received positive feedback.

The project was also an experiment if people had something that they wanted to get off their chest because experts at Harvard School of Public Health and the University of Rochester showed that people who bottle up their emotions are in higher risk of premature death, 35% to be exact.

To overcome this issue, I’m planning to carry on the project but instead of “Message From People In Coventry”, it will be “Message From People On Earth”, and people will be asked to send message anonymously via www.peoplesmessages.tumblr.com. To implement the concept of “A Message in a Bottle”, the messages will be released on an Instagram account @peoplesmessages.